i'm not sure what happened, but i have been trying unsuccessfully to convince myself that it all really happened. it's not what i want. but it's what he needs. i literally don't know what in the world is happening without him. i mean, it's been a week filled with learning for me: i realize girl time is much needed (you'd think that was obvious, but being with someone for a long time makes you forget...), and that there are things i need to just let go of. opinions about stuff, mostly. so i know it's been good. and i'm thankful, in a strange way. but in the end, i wish so much that things were different. but i guess, we broke up.
