today is kind of a big day, in a small way. my bear gets his orders today, meaning we will finally know where we are going to end up in a few months' time. it's little to celebrate, but when you've spent the past few months or so not really knowing where you could possibly end up living, but knowing you'd be displaced soon, it's quite a relief. it means finally making real plans, instead of coming up with a dozen maybes because your mind can't settle on just accepting that you can't do anything at all. the ability to just let things happen as they come is one that i find difficult to grasp as my life quickly shifts from organized civilian life to the somewhat chaotic and beyond my control lifestyle of the military. it can be both fun and distressing, and although i already wouldn't change it for the world, i have days where it is all too much to handle. but i suppose that's more than acceptable and expected when your other person is apart from you on long and grueling training courses. a lot of thought and many talks went into making the decision for him to join the canadian military, and on hard days i just wish he were back home. but i am overall excited to see what our future holds. and we have so much to look forward to in the next year...
i can't wait to be able to finally start my application for teacher's college, hopefully at ottawa u! i am so looking forward to immersing myself back into french canadian culture, and celebrating being bilingual once again. i am finally going to be able to start my final steps towards becoming a french teacher, and i am seriously so excited! within a few months, bear and i will have our very own place to decorate, and i can't even describe how excited i am for the house searching to begin. i love my toronto apartment, and i will miss it's charm. but i get so excited when it's time to move to new spaces. ...good thing, considering the amount of times moving might happen!
xx
red - phoria
